Just because its you, and me.

Saturday, October 31, 2009 @ 10:33 AM ♥

Now or never.

Hmm.

Dance's open house was quite fine, I suppose.

Had to be in my Montage's costume, & others in their's too.

Anyw, fuck those kids that didn't wanto listen to us, & just came to grab sweets.

But I love MBS' kids k, they are all so polite, though some was super shy.

Well, Wednesday & Thursday was alright, cause all we did is to slack in school.

Yesterday was PTI, went well with Mrs Kwok, cause she said that I was a great on the whole, not only until my second semester cause I seemed very shag. She said I was already quite good, cause I can be successfully promoted to S4EXP. 'Cept that she complained about my uniform. She told mom if I don't lengthen my skirt then she'll havto send me to DC in 2010. & Mom said let her just do it. Wtf?

Mom wanted to meet up with Ms Tan (Ai Hua) cause of my POA results throughout the year & wanted to ask her how can I improve about it.

The whole conversation was fucked, not gna mention it cause only Manlyn knows.

I don't understand, whats so nice to compare about results? Can't they see I've already been putting in my best effort? Look at the results, obviously they can tell that I've at least improved right. Why must they fucking compare me to other people. I am not them, I have my own abilities okay? I know I've already done my best, but you claimed that you did not see my hardwork, my results cannot tell. You said I'm forever on my phone, but did you really see when I'm really studying, when I'm really cracking my brain to solve any other questions? No, you did not cause you are sleeping when I'm doing so. This might also explain why I'm so tired in school always. When I'm out for group study, you always say I'm going out to play. I know the importance of studying, & I know when to do what. For this EOY, who saw my hardwork? Who knows what have I been doing? Only me, myself, & my results showed it to me. I know I've improved, although not by alot, but I did it right? I promised you I won't retain, I won't be channelled to the NA stream. Right now, I was promoted, but you were unhappy about it. I told myself I won't wna disappoint you both again, I know I've tried my best, but I'm sorry, because I know, I just disappointed you both again. I guess you guys won't understand how I feel.

I know every mom also has their own expectations & abilities, but how I wish my mom was like muacks. Thankyou aunty, for even encouraging me for doing well this time, & I guess you were the only one who was there to comfort me, understand me, & giving me a chocolate for striving for the better. Thank you, although I know you won't be seeing this. Muacks! :')

Also thanks to Manlyn Laogong, Zhirong Erzi, Raymond, & not forgetting Yvonne Sweetheart.

Thanks for being there to make me laugh, & make me feel better, cause I know its not end of the world cause I've such great friends who are there, & will always be. I love you all, ttm. :)

Thanks Erzi & Raymond for accompanying me the whole night, you guys really rock k.

Many people did too, those who attended Mei Hua's birthday celebration.

Also, Happy advanced birthday Mei Hua! :)

What an emotional post.

I think I should be preparing myself to head to Mrs Chan's house now.

Kbye:):)